Wednesday, January 22, 2014

Treasure Box

My dad told me to clean up my things (abubot) I don't know why or what he is talking about. He gave me a box and I just ended up boxing our memories (biii). I miss you a lot. But for now I just need to shut up. I cant help it last night so I post something about "No one cares about me" on facebook cant help it. I have no one to talk or open up to.

Some may say "the painful part about ending a friendship is dealing with the memories..." but for me "Memories are what we hold onto when everything seems to be changing. Memories are a Gift time cannot wash away..."

This is a Gift, I am happy when we make this memories. I will treasure You, this, and our memories forever.

I cant say I am happy for you right now. I know my self it will take time. Just take care and I already ask God to guide you to your journey because I am not there anymore.

Saturday, January 18, 2014

T.T Sila na....

wow.... It's official... SILA NA!!! tang ina... -.- I thought I'm already okay. BUT IM NOT!!!!!!

Isang araw pa masama pakiramdam ko kase wala I feel left out, regret something or wtf I don't know.. Maybe I just miss someone that i can talk to any time, openly and ready to listen to me.

Tiniis ko na di ka kausapin for a few weeks because of that stupid number game. But things are different now. You don't care any more.

I tried to talk to her last friday about what I feel and what I want pero di ko maisingit ehh tawa lang ako ng tawa kunware masaya haha baliw ko din ehh. And I feel you don't care na talaga. But ewan siguro nga di ko na daw kase kelangan sabihin. Then today is the most worst feeling ever. Ganito pala ang feeling. Confused right now.

Deym I dont know what to do now. Naiiyak ako... T.T I have nothing to expect now. Nothing to dream about. Just nothing. -.-

Just releasing my anger right now typing and talking to this blog instead of punching a stupid wall. hayyzz alam ko kaw lang din naman makakabasa neto if ever na buksan mo pa tong blog naten.

I know its my fault. I deserve this.
I thought I'm already okay but I'm not.